Short notes..

hiatus... thanks to FB and other social media XD

Saturday, March 26, 2011


my adorable older brother...

People ask... "How do you see yourself in 5 years....", “what is your dream?”, I want sound smart and say "oh earning thousands and maybe traveling..." but sometimes deep down, I really don’t know how I would do that… or how to get there…

I may think I am ambitious, cause girls like me are thought to be independent, and ambitious… and always having to know what to do… and having to do it just right… being the model daughter… a role model… good employee… all the stress… sometimes makes me want to be weak… and horrible… just to mix it up…

I am actually a very simple person, little things in life makes me happy. I am perfectly happy just sitting at the beach, listening to waves… or sleeping till noon… or listen to music… the little things… sometimes I just feel like just being silly and bimbo for just a few hours..

All in all, what is my dream?

My dream is to be happy… and to be able to make loved ones to be happy too…

Everything else is just a bonus…

Sunday, March 6, 2011

I'm probably the worse blogger in the history of bloggers

Hi everybody... yes hiatus for 3 months.. I m horrible... I abandon my readers... and I abandon my friends… !!O.o

Why you may ask am I on this uber long hiatus??? for one I started work again :)... this time not as an intern but as a real contributing employee at Sony. Aw… It’s been a crazy since I start back work, it’s like the one month interval during Christmas, meant nothing to them and all my work was just left there to rot… so when I went back.. -.- I had to pick up the pieces…. After I was done with picking up the pieces, I had new responsibilities… so Sony has kept me really busy, it’s not like into the night or what… I leave work at a decent hour but when I get home… I am so tired I just want to stone in front of the TV, and rot.

Besides the tiredness, I was really uninspired to write anything, my social life meter dropped like a meteor burning into nothing and crashing on some unknown area and this doesn’t turn into some Roswell TV series, it just crashes… so it’s quite a routine life, makes me feel super old… really need to think about what kind of life I want to live, is this really how I want to spend my youth being?!?! Boring and uninteresting?!?!?!

N O!! I will not succumb to this!! I’m determine not to!!! I will start by attempting to revive my blog!! Really really really try…. Not some half ass job and end up not doing anything for my blog…!!

Thanks for reading, my dear readers... it doesn't mean a lot to you, but it means a lot to me that you passed through.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Attempts of reviving my blog!

Dear Readers,

I know I have been on hiatus for almost 2 month… and my postings haven’t been very consistent.. A MILLION PARDONS!!!PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!! Know that I really wanted to post… but I have been really really busy with work… working with Sony has been both Exciting and Draining at the same time… which doesn’t really leave much excitement and energy for blogging or anything artistically productive.

Been trying my best to catch up with different people in my life… you know who you are… if you don’t… to sum up all the important people in my it would be all my family and friends lor… each and everybody in my life is important.. so yes I will TRY to make time for all.. please do start making appointments… and if you receive my invites for dinner… please don’t reject me please~~.. I really need all this makan time…

I can’t find a suitable sonnet to describe how much I miss spending time talking with my friends… I guess this is the price to pay for a job and a career… but is it really worth it?? Sometimes I wonder… if I would be happier just being poor but with loving friends by my side…

To update a little about me now… I m nearing the end of my internship and I am quite busy with the year end preparation for Christmas and youth camp… I wonder how I manage it all… maybe humans are just incredible that way… that we can stretch this much… we can achieve more than we think we can you know…

So yup… coming to the end of the year… isn’t it fast… this year feels like the fastest year… I still remember about this time last year… my mom was graduating… and in a blink of an eye… Yu Li is graduating and walking the same path towards that certificate of hers… sorry Yu Li for not being able to make it for you graduation… I will make it up to you… ask of me for anything for Christmas!! I will try and make it possible!!... And I promise to treat you to a great meal =D either I cook or I bring you out for a girls night out… you name it!

With Much Love and Apologies,


Found a sonnet to describe how I feel now..

Sonnet 19 by William Shakespeare

Devouring Time, blunt thou the lion's paws,
And make the earth devour her own sweet brood;
Pluck the keen teeth from the fierce tiger's jaws,
And burn the long-lived phoenix in her blood;
Make glad and sorry seasons as thou fleets,
And do whate'er thou wilt, swift-footed Time,
To the wide world and all her fading sweets;
But I forbid thee one most heinous crime:
O, carve not with thy hours my love's fair brow,
Nor draw no lines there with thine antique pen;
Him in thy course untainted do allow
For beauty's pattern to succeeding men.
Yet, do thy worst, old Time: despite thy wrong,
My love shall in my verse ever live young.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

53 years of independence

Happy Independence day Malaysia..I think it is something worth being proud about.. as a fellow Malaysian.. I am proud to be Malaysian. that out beloved country has come to far from the day they declared Malaysia as an independent country...

but sadly there are still people who think that some people don't belong in this Malaysia, some times i would wonder... what it really means to be a Malaysian? do we become Malaysian because we were born in this country?? or because we were raised in this country?? or because our forefathers we here first or second??... or do you become Malaysian when you adopt the Malaysian state of mind....

for me... i would say you are truly Malaysian.. when you start to love the country like it is your own... and i mean this is every aspect... when you truly feel for this country, the well being of the country and the people in it... then can you truly call your selves a citizen of the country... i have seen to many who think and say that they do not belong in this country because they don't feel welcome... then i would ask... can another person make you feel unwelcome in your own home??... or that you don't belong in your own home??... if the home is your home... i don't believe that anybody make you feel not belong in you own home... if there are problems in your home... i m very very very sure you would try your best to try and fix the problem... rather than kicking the problem out of the home.. i m not talking about a house... i m talking about a home...

you wouldn't let anybody just litter any where in your home right??.. you wouldn't let anybody hurt your family right??.. you wouldn't let any intruder invade and destroy your home right??...

just food for thought.. in conjunction with our National Day... our National song.. with much respect...

Negara Ku (My Country)

Negara ku, tanah tumpahnya darah ku
Rakyat hidup bersatu dan maju
Rahmat bahagia, Tuhan kurniakan
Raja kita selamat bertakhta
Raja kita selamat bertakhta

My country, my native land
The people living united and progressive
May God bestow blessing and happiness
May our Ruler have a successful reign

I Love Malaysia.. =D

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

The bored-ness of me

I am so bored... I could die... =.="

Plagiarized from Yie Sue

You are female
You are in high school
You dropped out of high school
You graduated within the last 5 years
You live on your own
You live within 20 minutes of your best friend
You live within 20 minutes of the last person you kissed
You live within 20 minutes of your ex
You have hugged someone in the last 48 hours
You have been to the movies within the last week
You have had 3 or more boyfriends/girlfriends just this year
You have been a designated driver
You have broken merchandise and not paid for it
You have played strip poker
You are atheist
You recycle regularly
You are a brunette
You have dated a blonde
You are friends with a redhead
You are taller than your mom
You have a checking account
You’ve written a check for less than $5
You have visited the Statue of Liberty
You have visited the Eiffel Tower
You have visited Big Ben
You have visited the Coliseum
You have visited The Great Wall of China
You have never been out of the country
You have been a waiter/waitress
You own a Bible
You own something with a Pentagram on it
You have used a Ouija Board
You have been a witch for Halloween
You have been a zombie for Halloween
You have been a Disney character for Halloween
You don’t celebrate Halloween
You have had your belly button pierced
You have your tongue pierced
You have your eyebrow pierced
You have a Monroe piercing
You have your nose pierced
You have an ankle tattoo
You have a wrist tattoo
You have a back tattoo
You have no tattoos
You have more than 5 tattoos
You straighten your hair
You have worn a dress in the last 3 days
You live somewhere that gets snow
You celebrate Hanukkah
You were at your own house last New Year’s
You were at a bar last New Year’s
You slept through last New Year’s
You have worked on Christmas Eve
You have worked on Christmas
You have been told ‘I love you’ by someone today
You were told by someone who’s not family
You slept in your own bed last night
You regret kissing the last person you kissed
You enjoyed your last kiss
You are wearing a necklace right now
You are wearing something red
You are wearing something blue
You are wearing something purple
Your phone is fully charged
Your phone number ends with an even number
You have kissed the last person you called/texted
You last called/texted a boy
You are currently listening to music
You are waiting for something
You don’t like seafood
You have eaten deer sausage
You have given a complete stranger your phone number
You have been hit on at work
You have been hit on by someone more than 20 years older than you
You were creeped out by it
You are a good speller
You are very punctual
You were dating someone in December of 2008
You are still dating that person
You have cheated on someone
You have been cheated on
You have been on a cruise ship
You have camped out in your own backyard
You are wearing something that doesn’t belong to you
You are a Pisces
You are a Leo
You are a Capricorn
You have Irish heritage
You have Polish heritage
You have Japanese heritage
You have Israeli heritage
You have German heritage
You have Portuguese heritage
You have French heritage
You have Norwegian heritage
You have Korean heritage
You were born in May
You were born in June
You were born in October
You wonder what will happen when you die
You are afraid of the dark
You write in all capital letters.
You have been told you have nice handwriting
You have had a song written for you
You have had a picture drawn of you
You have curly hair
Your phone provider is Sprint
Your phone provider is AT&T
Your phone provider is Verizon
You live within an hour of your birthplace
You are wearing a watch
You are wearing flip flops
You wouldn’t date someone who smoked
You know someone with the same birthday as you
You are a morning person
You are a night owl
You slept in past 10am today
You have big plans for next weekend
You are thinking of someone right now
Your job is stressing you out
You don’t have a job
You have never had a job
You were fired from your last job
You know sign language
You made your bed today
You will usually try something at least once
You have been swimming in the last month
You have taken a ballet class
You have taken karate
You have taken gymnastics
You wish on shooting stars
You wish at 11:11 (not really, but 11:11 is a special time of day for me)
Your birthday has already come this year
You have been in a relationship that lasted longer than a year
You ended your last relationship
Your ex ended your last relationship
You are over your ex
You have gone after someone you knew was bad for you
You have let someone use you
You have been in a physically abusive relationship
You are engaged
You are married
You are divorced
You have a child
You were/are a teenage mom
You were named after someone
You like your name
Your last drink was water

You have visited somewhere said to be ‘haunted’
You have skipped school just because you didn’t feel like going
You have taken medicine when you ‘feel a headache coming on’
You have pet fish

You live on a farm
You live in a trailer
You have a hangover
You have had a Jehovah’s Witness show up at your house
You live in South Carolina
You live in Illinois
You live in Maryland
You live in New Mexico
You have godparents
You have step- or half-siblings
You are the oldest
You are adopted
You have a twin
You don’t want kids
You want more than four kids
You have a bad temper
You have made out with a complete stranger
You usually make the first move in an intimate situation
You have worked with a Kayla
You have gone to the movies with a Jarred
You have hugged a Lexi
You have held hands with a Marcus
You have dated a Rachel
You have kissed a David
You have ridden in a car with a Nicole
You have had class with a Patrick
You have gone out to eat with a Chloe
You know a Kyle in the military
You are related to a Julie
You have gotten drunk with a Brent
You have broken your arm
You have had to get stitches on your face
You have had an MRI
Your fingernails are painted
Your fingernails are painted black
You like to read
You like to cook
You like to draw

You can play an instrument
You keep a lot of secrets from people
You don’t think people would accept you if they really got to know you
You don’t trust people easily
You borrowed something you really need to give back to someone
You drive a car older than a 2002
You have lost a friend you never thought you would
You know a child who died of cancer
You know a teenager who died in a car wreck
You have done something illegal in the past 24 hours
You have cut your hair in the last week
You wear glasses
You have been pulled over for speeding
You love to drive with the windows down
Your favourite season is Autumn
Your favourite colour is orange
Your favourite animal is a dolphin
You last rode in a car with a relative
You last rode in a car with a girl
You last rode in a car with the person you are dating
You regularly watch soap operas
You love Italian food
You love Mexican food
You love Chinese food
You can see a box of tissues from where you are
You can see your reflection in a mirror
You can see what’s on tv from where you are
Your best friend is older than you
You have to go to school/work tomorrow
You answered every question truthfully

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Recovering from World Cup Fever

i wrote this post last week.. only uploading now =.= swt this is how bz i am..

World Cup ended.. and after 2 days i finally am in the right mind to post a blog post on it.. i think.. hahah

it has been quite an unexpected season i think... frankly i didn't really know any footballer... or had any knowledge about football.. but i was interested lol and there was this hype in the office about FIFA.. so i cannot help but be pulled into the hype too XD ... you know.. sony is one of the official sponsors =D... not bad huh... anyways yar.. my brother & i would go to mamak stalls to watch... and would go home from work and watch.. and when i went out with friends... Football would be the main topic.. you get sucked into this vortex of football talk.. and you can't help but be excited for random teams...

i didn't really pick a team to support till after a few games.. before the season started.. i wanted to say i was an Argentina fan.. but i didn't really know any of the players.. =.=" not really... hahaha.. anyways.. in the end.. i chose Germany to support!! cause.. 1. they have lots of hot guys..!! 2. they are so polite when they play.. i mean.. you dont see them walking around trying to pick a fight... 3. they are so cute when they hug each other after goals.. like brothers... oh yar i would classify this point in TEAMWORK.. yar.. 4. they are so patriotic!! during the national anthems.. they would sing.. and look like they really love their country and would die for it.. or in this sense... play football with all their hearts... but other teams.. just stand there.. like they could care less.. so.. i m into patriotic guys... just something about them makes me go crazy.. 5. they are just plain good =D ...

although they didnt win the world cup i still thing they are the best...3rd place is better than no place at all right??... you guys did great you deserve better but its okie... at least thomas muller got the golden boo~~ Go GERMANY!! .. haha i think thats enough about my world cup experience.. gah~~

oh paul the octopus should pay for predicting Germany will lose =.=" gah... but its okie... 4 yrs from now.. Germany is gonna be better and stronger... and hotter.. and i will be there waiting for them XD

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

A legend that is Larry King

Saw on the news that the CNN's Larry King Live is ending.. after 25 finally happened... i remember last year... while i was watching CNN with my dad.. i was thinking to myself.. hey.. he is really old.. i wonder what will happen if he died or he retires... i mean.. he is too good.. and too familiar to be replaced.. it would never match up to the original.. would they come up with a totally new program... i guess there will be a big void there.. you can't really replace legends.. oh like Oprah.. =.= when she announce that the oprah show was coming to an end.. i felt a void too.. cause i have been watching it for years.. and seen how it help people.. hahah.. oh the one i remember the best is the one that taught women how to buy proper bras.. and how to wear them proper hahah... anyways!!!!!!

what i have learn..
1. He said he always tried to ask short questions, never come in with an agenda and "I left my ego at the door." "I never learned a thing while I was talking," Larry King said. and this is a constant lesson i have to learn.. cause i talk too much... i have to keep reminding myself that i have to give people a chance to talk.. or i have to keep reminding myself to remind myself to give people a chance to talk...

i shall reserve all my talking here on my blog.. and give people a chance to talk when i see them.. hahaha...

oh blog~ you are my the only one i can talk to.. (emo betul xD)

2. He dismissed a series of stories this spring questioning his future and speculating about possible successors."You can't worry about things you can't control," he said.

i agree with him XD.. we can't worry about things we can't control.. life is gonna knock you down and say weird things about you that are probably not true.. but do you let it bother you?? no!!! you move on.. and live you life.. XD

"I can't control if a newspaper is going to speculate about something or if a blog is going to speculate ... If I let it get me, I'll go nuts. So what I try to do, and I'm not being morbid, I just try to do the best show I can. If it works, it works." Larry said...

3. "The long-time radio host was a pioneer in cable television, his desk considered a valued spot to sit for anyone interested in talking to Americans."
impacting the masses...and always having humility.. =D truly inspired by his work...

you deserve a long rest larry.. i believe you have changed MANY lives with what you have done.. you encouraged open discussion.. never hesitating to ask hard questions.. haha... you are truly a legend..

thanks for reading my thought again =D

Monday, June 28, 2010

What it takes...

Youth Leadership Retreat june 2010

On 18th & 19th of June, RYAC had our 1st Leadership Retreat for the youth committee and the upcoming leaders... we had it at the most beautiful place I have been to for retreat so far... it’s at the Horizon at Port Dickson, you know how they say about Port Dickson having horrible beach and all.. i think this was fine.. of course it wasn't really a beach thing.. More like rocks, then sea... no sand.. hahaha... but it was beautiful.. Horizon is the perfect name for the place... because.. you could see the horizon right outside your window.. a perfect line separating sea from sky... yet again amazed by the wonderful creation of God...

sadly i missed the morning and afternoon sessions... cause I had to work on Friday... and apparently interns dont get to apply for leave when you are not sick or bed ridden or anything...gah!!

anyways after work... met up with miss Jessy and Mister Andersen.. =D and went straight to PD... it took about 1 hour to get there~~~ weee~~~ and we were just in time to see the orange sunset.. so beautiful... again.. was in AWE~ took pictures~ with my new company camera.. XD i m not giving face... they loan me and i m going to use it to its full potential.. XD ... weeee~~ 3 cheers for company loaned items.. oh.. i also got a Sony Vaio laptop to use for the time i m in Sony XD ... well its better than nothing at all XD ...

anyways.. back to the retreat.. the Dino group organized everything.. and planned the session... to help the committees to grow... and i am really thankful for all the hard work and time and effort and heart and everything lahh even money... you all really cared so much that you would plan for us =.= what?! who would do this?!!? for a bunch of monkeys!!?!?!...

(random note: i realize i ALWAYS use the word "anyways".. i wonder why...)

so.. the topics were much on issues of communication... conflict management and all.. this was one issue that strike us straight at the heart... cause personally.. i did feel this lack of communication... that things were not done properly.. and we didn't communicate anything to anyone.. kind of like loners... we are just doing our job.. and not discussing... probably fear of getting shot down.. or that people will disagree.. i don't know.. maybe we just don't like to have conflict.. cause we don't know how to face them...

the reality is... we don't care much for each other.. because we never took the effort to get to know each other... we just live in our own little world..not needing one another... and we never learn to commmunicate our ideas.. and never learn to converse with people... the next thing you know.. problems come because things are not done properly... and people get hurt because of misunderstanding...and in the end.. people leave bitterly...

kinda sad you know.. so yar.. we had this training to teach conflict management.. which is to resolve problems.. not run away from it.. not yielding/giving in... not always wanting to win... but yes... to sit down n talk and coming up with a solution for the problems... and to do that... we need to communicate....

all in all... if a committee or a group of friends don't talk.. we will never leave the level of acquaintance.. and to really come to a resolving conflict stage.. you need to have more than just quittance friendship....

well it all boils down to loving one another... =.= if we don’t love.. we don't care... if we don't care... we don't change.... if we don't change.. we will be the same old person and will probably be stuck in the same situations or problems for the rest of you miserable life....

God puts situation and people in your life for a reason... and i believe that in every situation.. good or bad.. you can learn something.. and there is always room to improve.. so don't be proud and say you don't need to change... cause.. there is always room for improvement and change....

*disclaimer: i m not talking about you =D if you feel offended by what i say.. i m sorry.. but it is not meant to be offensive.. i m just telling my feelings about issues in my life...*

darn. this is a long post.. thanks for sticking with me...

you know i love you all (my beloved readers..) peace out!!!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Like a Dead Fish....

after 3 weeks of working, i have finally come to understand why people are so dead tired after a full day's work... i feel for you....

during my 1st week it was okie.. i could still blog and read news and lepak for a it was good and all... 2nd week i was given more responsibility but it was still okie.. i could still go home and online till about 11 or 12... but 3rd week... the tiredness finally sets in... and everyday i reach home... just like a dead fish... =.=" my head hits the sofa and after 30 mins of football... i doze off... can you believe it.. so i have missed quite a few match... or i watch bits and pieces of some match... like when my brother goes..."GOAL"... i get shocked out of my sleep and see a bit of the goal replays... then fall back to sleep.. sometimes i don't even realise that there was a goal.. thats how tired i got hahaha...

well.. i m blogging now XD ... so it could only mean i m quite free.. hahaha.... big boss came back from her holiday... i get my mundane life back for a little bit... before the havoc starts again i guess.. hahaha...

but overall... i have learned new things.. like how people do things in a company... you will be surprise at how many decisions managers and supervisors need to make in a day... all the little little things... that would eventually result in big things... rawr... but all in all.. i really thing marketing is the right line for me... the excitement and the date line... it may be stressful in the long run... but i guess i excel in stressful places.... hahaha...

all in all... i miss communicating with people... its kinda lonely to work in an office that doesn't allow facebook or msn....

so people please... if you are free... and you wanna chat.. do find me on email... we can have email chat... =D

my email :

i miss human interaction... besides the random talk between colleagues...

Friday, June 11, 2010

The FIFA fever??

I m very sure everybody woke up today… with a fever… the FIFA Fever =D… even yesterday night… people were staying up late to catch the opening ceremony in Johannesburg, South Africa… sadly I couldn’t watch it LIVE… this morning woke up and watch some of the performance on Youtube XD… I watched the Alicia Keys and shakira performance… wooo their vocals were hot XD… okie as hot as they could go… Alicia sounded a little hoarse… but its okie.. she nailed it to the stage!! Y’all!!... anyways.. I had Goosebumps… hearing her sing the last part… the “…in Africa… in World Cup…” lol I dunno but it gave me a feeling of Unity… and all these different countries together in one place XD celebrating football… rawr~~~

Oh then I came to work… everybody is in some countries jersey… omg.. made me more excited.. I couldn’t watch any of the games… sad… anyways… I m sure there are other ways to celebrate the momentous occasion… like wearing the jersey… and all XD…

I remember watching in year 2002… haha.. that was like form 2… I think that was the 1st time I actually sat and watched anything relating to football… hahaha... wonder who is gonna win this year…

What do you think?? Who are you supporting?? Do drop a comment =D

All in all… if anybody wants to invite me to go watch a match somewhere~~ feel free to invite~~ XD it’s no fun watching football alone… haha…